I had a super positive post ready to go live this morning, but when I woke up my mood was sort of crummy and it felt a little dishonest.
I’ve been cooking, cleaning, traveling, entertaining or working for basically the last 2 weeks straight and I’M TIRED, you all. But I also still have a house guest, and meals still need to be cooked and coffee still needs to be made and waters refreshed.
Also, Garrett’s grandma died suddenly yesterday. While it is really nice that Garrett’s mom is here and we can all be together (especially since our plan was to be with her brothers too on Thanksgiving) it has also sort of changed the landscape and the vibe of this visit.
I had lunch with Sarah today and it totally cheered me up to have a chat with a good friend! But we both were on the same page about how life right now is being measured in increments of time and events. The week Garrett’s mom is visiting. Thanksgiving. Christmas. Overall I very much have the feeling of “Let’s hurry up and just get through this so we can relax,” and I hate that.
With Garrett’s grandma passing away it is just another reminder life is short and uncertain, and as often as possible it is good to really try be in the moment. So I’m going to try and do that for the rest of the week, and part of that means I probably won’t post anything new here. I hope you understand.
I need be there for Garrett and for his mom. I need to be the best hostess I can be and make sure everyone is having a nice time. I need make sure I do what I can to contribute to a Thanksgiving for a family who is going through an unexpected rough patch. And for me to do that I need to make sure I have a little time to myself too.
So I’m putting my oxygen mask on first, and taking the rest of the week off. I also may be stashing a bottle of wine and a glass underneath the sink in my master bathroom just in case of emergency, but we’ll just keep that between you and me.
I hope you all have lovely Thanksgiving’s with your friends and families, and I will hopefully be back early next week with that dose of positivity that felt very genuine when I wrote it.